KnittyBug

There comes a time during the finishing of an object when I get a little undecisive in whether I will actually wear the piece. This in point with butterfly. I ‘m to the point where all there is left to do is a few things like a little crochet and weaving in ends. But when I tried it on and actually took a good look thoughts of me not wearing it came to mind. I really like the one in the magazine and mine looks pretty good but I just don’t see myself wearing it. Last night I thought about ripping it out but I also thought about just finishing it and then giving it a try on as if I was going to wear it out and about.

I also just want to move on to something new. I mean this was fun, kind of, to knit but really I’m bored with working on this for so long. Little miss Peanut wanted to try it on too which amazed me because she never tries the stuff on I knit up for her. So I pulled out her Monica that has been hiding and she tried it on. But it’s a little short and I really didn’t like the colors so I told her I would whip up a new one.

I’ve been calling her little miss in a sarcastic way lately because she’s been going through the fun terrible threes….if it’s called that. There has been a lot of temper tantrums and screaming going on especially when were out in the store and it’s really been embarrassing because now she’s that kid. You know that kid when your in the grocery store and you hear screaming coming from the back of the store and you wonder what’s going on. But it’s not just one sided because now I’m that parent. Yeah the one that get’s the look of what did you just do to that poor child or even better wow your kids horrible. No I haven’t done anything to her and no she isn’t horrible it’s just that she wanted a mop and we don’t need one. Peanut is a very good actress and seems to know that other people are watching her. And I have actually had to defend myself from some nasty comments. Anybody else out there been through this I’d really like some good advice.

Oh and I’m in need of some more good advice. Miss Peanut has become Miss Popularity in the neighborhood . She has a bunch of new friends….if you could call them that. The main problem is the Peanut is 3 and these kids are like 5 years older. I think I mentioned before they showed up a few days after Peanuts swing set went up in the backyard around her birthday. I don’t know maybe I’m just being to suspicious about it but before that I don’t remember seeing these kids even though they live down the street.
Some of the kids aren’t allowed in my backyard…which is great because they are too big for the swingset…it’s one of those wooden ones for little, younger kids. So they like to run around the front yard which means I am always the goalie to keep Peanut away from the street. They chalk because we have chalk and they tried to read some books to her that they brought from their houses..which I thought was nice. Then they started to not understand what it means to be 3 old. Meaning I have to go everywhere Peanuts goes and if I have to go in she has to go in, that she has to take naps, she can’t try out a scooter because she is too little and I don‘t want her to without a helmet, she can’t be outside for long periods of time when it’s really hot because it’s dangerous, and she can’t have gum.
I know I’m rambling on but I really need to get this whole mess out and find out what you think so just bare with me.
Anyways they started coming around so much and ringing my door bell like crazy. So I disconnected it because they would wake her up. Telling them not to do that just didn’t work and neither did mentioning that she was and is going to be sleeping for awhile. Nope they just kept coming back so I would just not answer the door.
Then when they do play they want me to give them something to drink or a snack…”boy I’m so thirsty…and I’m really hungry” . Seriously I offered water and they asked for bottled water. Why can they go home and get that? I’m not feeding them or giving out sodas.
They stand in the doorway to my house…which I really hate because they seem to eyeball everything in my living room. Then because they have seen the toys we have in there they want me to bring them out. Um no.
Now one of the girls is allowed to come in the backyard and play. I thought this was nice because then it would be one playmate and there is a lot of stuff to do in the backyard. But that turned into wanting me to play with her because she doesn’t want to do the same things Peanut wants too…like imagine that she is on an expidition in a jungle and catch bugs, collect flowers, and so much more. Peanut has a great imagination and I love that because she comes up with some fun stuff. But her friend is always asking me is there anything else to do, or are we going to do the same things….meaning me with me. When did I need another playmate?
So the annoying factor hit an all time high when I realized yesterday that this child was being sent to my house. She showed up asked if she could play and I told her the usual that she had to go ask if she could come it the backyard. Now we hadn’t even finished our breakfast or changed into play clothes and I told her we would be out in a few minutes and I thought by the time she went to her house asked and came back we would be ready. She was back in a minute and knocking impatiently. She brought a video game for herself and her bike. Why would you bring a game that only one person can play and a bike only you can ride….it’s not like Peanut has a bike she can ride too. This made me think that the mom sent her down here so that I could keep an eye on her. So then she wants a popsicle and she wants me to do to do this and that. While Peanut is actually doing her own thing. This girl also showed me yesterday that she likes to push Peanut around and I didn’t like that at all.
I don’t really now how to deal with this situation either. The other mom wants to meet me...by coming down to her house… but honestly I’m not really interested because I think there is more to it. Sometime I get those funny feelings about peoples real reasons for wanting to do things and I think I’ve really learned to go with my gut from dealling with my MIL. I truly think that because this is the girl that always wants me to bring toys out that she really wants to be allowed in my house. If her mom meets me then she will “know” who I am and then she’d probably be allowed in my house…..which honestly I don’t want any of these kids in my house. The other things is that I’m sure that these kids have told their parents that Peanut doesn’t go to daycare, meaning I’m home all day, meaning the oh she could babysit. I already seem to babysit when they come down here for hours.

I also feel bad for Peanut because there have been time where I’ve had said no we aren’t going out to play with them. I do want her to have friends but friends that are her age so that she doesn’t get treated like a baby and picked up all the time, or giglled at because she doesn’t speak as clearly as them, or pushed and pulled around.

I don’t know if my annoyed feelings towards these kids is unfair. I’ve tried to be stern with these kids a couple times about what they can and can’t do around my house and I get ignored. Why do I have to be a babysitter? That’s really what I feel like that I’m babysitting all these kids for free.

So let me know what you think. Really if you think I’m just being too sensitive or unfair let me know. Or if you know what I should do…let me know. I need to get some other opinions on this.

This has also added to my lack of posting. I mean it seams like I have been so worn out from entertaining the neighborhood that I haven’t really ad the energy or time to do anything. I’ve also been debating on moving my blog…but that takes some time that I haven’t had. We’ll see.

Btw thank you for reading. :)